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I decided to start my workout weeks on Monday, because last Monday was when I finally got the motivation to start working out regularly again.  I must say that even in just the past week my stamina has improved and I am able to complete some work outs I really struggled through at the beginning of the week!  I like to try new challenges, and I get frustrated when I can’t do something… so I have to work at it until I succeed… it’s a good mentality to have I guess!!

Anyway, my goals for this week are as follows:

Work out a total of 11.5 hours (I did 2:50 today, so I already set the stage pretty good!)

in those workouts I would like to:

Do yoga at least 3 times… I really struggle with yoga!  I don’t have balance, patience, or coordination… and honestly some of those positions are just plain painful to me!  Downward dog?  I am trying to figure out how people find comfort and meditation in a position like that.  I am staying open minded though, and striving to be able to complete a full yoga workout without saying f* this like I normally do. haha.

Do biggest loser bootcamp at least 4x… I am only on level one for now… next week I will be ready to do both parts.

Do 6 pack in 6 weeks workout at least 2x… I did it once today (level one) and it was easier than I thought it would be.  Maybe I will do it more than twice.  I don’t know if I really believe in that workout program, getting a 6 pack requires having an extremely low level of body fat, but it’s worth a shot.  Wasn’t really too into the dance moves in the cardio part, but it did make we sweat, and it added a new type of workout to my regimen to keep me entertained.

Walk 25 miles… should be easy.  I do Leslie Sansone’s start walking everyday… I do the 3 mile, then do some other stuff, then do the 2 mile… then some other stuff… then one mile.  I got 6 miles out of the way already today! YAY.

I really haven’t altered my eating habits, but they really weren’t that bad to begin with.  Since we moved, we don’t really have a lot of access to fast food.  But I am trying to cut back the diet soda… just one can a day.. and drink water and coffee to fill in the blanks.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday! 

I only have an hour and ten minutes left to work out this week to meet my goal!  YAY.

I was going to try and do it yesterday, but I worked a 15 hour day instead.  Hahaha.  I had myself convinced I was going to wake up in the morning and do it, but when my alarm went off it was snooze button all the way.

I have already been seeing noticeable results this week, which is awesome, but the scale really isn’t tipping.  And my fiance says me working out is making my boobs smaller.  haha.  He will have to get over it.  I just have to remind him that everything on me will be getting smaller so my boobs will look proportional to my body

Have a wonderful Sunday, just wanted to check in and say hello!!

Hey ladies!  Hope everyone’s weight loss journey is going well.

I have to say I SERIOUSLY fell off the wagon… gained 10 lbs in the past few months… I’m not really pleased about it, but I’m ready to get back into weight loss mode again.

A lot has happened since I last logged on.  With my boyfriend being laid off, I didn’t have as much alone time to work out, so I kinda threw in the towel.  A lot of good stuff has happened since, too, though!!

First of all… we moved out to the country… we are in the process of buying a bar… AND I got engaged!

I paid off my credit cards, made a lot of new friends… I am living a pretty satisfying and stress free life right now!

So, I think it’s time for me to start getting healthy again.  My goals as of now are to work out 10 hours a week, cut back to 1 diet soda a day, do yoga 3x a week, and in the realms of my working out walk or jog 20 miles a week.  These are pretty realistic right now, as I am not working as much as I was before.

I set up my own little work out room in the basement, and I am using exercise tv again as my fittness aid.  Anyway, I really missed all the motivation and support from everyone, and I hope we’re all still doing well… getting fit and fabulous.

Alright… time for me to stop talking about it and start doing it.  As of yesterday I only have to work out 3hrs and 10 minutes by Monday to meet my goal… but of course I am going to try and go above and beyond and reward myself every step of the way

Have a wonderful and functional day!

I have had a rough week… but it seems like so has everyone else!  It just seems like we are all suffering small (and large) misfortunes this week… and everyone is in my thoughts and prayers.

Yesterday I kinda went on a binge.  I ate crap I normally wouldn’t even give a second look to.  And I drank waaay too much vodka.  I feel like hell today, and I’m paying for my eating indescretions too if you know what I mean.  I don’t know why I punish myself like this!! 

Anyway… I decided to treat myself yesterday because I have been so bummed out about everything that has happened, and I have been working a LOT lately…. needed to spend a little money on myself.  I bought a new exercise mat… I have been working out on the hardwood floor and I have the bruises to prove it. haha.  I only spent ten bucks, but it was definitely worth it.  I also bought myself some healthy treats too.  TOM is coming soon, and I don’t want to backtrack by shoveling a tray of brownies into my face!

Anyway… I never realized how decadent health food can be!  I got myself some caramel flavored coffee… it makes my house smell so yummy and it tastes like it should be loaded with calories.  I drink coffee black, so I don’t dump a ton of extra calories into it.  It’s sooo good though.  I got some low fat waffles too and sugar free syrup… when you cover them in fruit you don’t even miss the butter!  I feel like I’m eating something bad, but with a side of turkey bacon…. mmmmmm… 

Tonight my boyfriend and roommate and I are going to the bar to play trivia.  It’s actually a really fun time, and the prizes are pretty great.  It’s 4 dollar quesadilla night… and honestly without sour cream, they aren’t THAT bad for you.  Since I had a little booze bender last night, I don’t forsee myself drinking anything but water, either!  So that should be fun and a good excuse to get out of the house.

I dunno, it’s the little things in life that I’m clinging to right now to cheer me up… since I usually turn to food when I’m depressed, I am excited I found some healthy choices to have around the house.  As soon as my head stops pounding I’m going to forget about yesterday and get back on my weight loss journey.  Thank you again ladies for all your support and motivation.  I hope everyone’s weeks start looking up.

I don’t even know where to start.  It’s been the worst 24 hours I could imagine.

I worked open to close yesterday because I’m pretty broke.  There was a really great crowd at the bar… I was actually having a great time.  And then of course some DICK had to ruin it by picking fights and calling me a “fat f*cking bitch” so I threw him out.  On his way out he told me to “watch my back”

AWESOME.  Love when people threaten me.  Especially when I work in a place where I constantly close by myself… walk through a dark parking lot alone… etc…  My boss is a former state trooper, so he doesn’t take it lightly, and the guy is banned for 30 days from the bar… but I was still reasonably shook.  I hate altrications, and usually people respect me enough as a bartender to not try and pull funny stuff while I work.  I hate when one bad apple ruins all that.

Well, I’m pretty much over that.  It’s just one example of how it’s been the worst 24 hours of the year so far.  Last night, after the superbowl, one of my favorite patrons snuck out of the bar without saying goodbye, and totaled his vehicle on the way home.  He had to be life flighted to a hospital about 45 minutes away from here (if you were to drive), and he has internal injuries.  He had surgeries this morning and is in ICU.  I am so upset, I don’t even know how to put it into words.  I hate bad things happening to anyone, especially people I care about.  And I feel partly responsible.  Because I was serving the alcohol.  I didn’t realize he left.  I didn’t offer to drive him home. :(  I know it’s not all my fault, but I wish I could do something to change what happened or at least ensure I don’t let it happen again in the future to someone I know.

I came home last night and drank a whole bottle of wine and passed out on the couch.  I was so upset I didn’t think I was going to be able to sleep.  I woke up at 5am this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep.  My boyfriend came home from work at 10am this morning and informed me he was laid off today.

He’s worked at the same place for the past 10 years.  He pretty much doesn’t have any options here.  I am so sad.  I don’t know what to do.  Everything is just going to shit right now and I don’t have any control over any of it.  HELP

Because if that workout isn’t effective, I am torturing myself for no reason.  Hahaha.  Has anyone else tried it?  It’s a video called 30 Day Shred.. I think the girl on it is a coach from Biggest Loser.  She really pushes you though… and the workout is CHALLENGING.  It’s 2 minutes weight training, 2 mintues cardio, and then abs.  In 3 seperate circuits.  If you have a set of hand weights, you have everything you need… but DAMN.  I didn’t think I was gonna make it after the first 5 minutes.  But I stuck it out.  I did workout 1… there are different levels, though.  It’s 30 minutes long including a warm up and cool down…. and the good news is…. she has had clients do that workout that have lost up to 20 lbs in 30 days.  That is if you do it every day, and you don’t cheat at all while you’re doing it.  I’m going to try it out because that sounds pretty tempting to me.  If anyone else has done it, let me know how you feel about it or what results you have seen.

I also did my Leslie Sansone walking workout today… I did the two mile one on exercise tv, and then I tried the 1 mile jog (wasn’t really keen on it… I can’t jog in place and then kick around without feeling like I’m gonna bust my skull off the floor by accident), and then I did my booster mile, too.  I like her style.  She is very laid back and encouraging and positive.  Granted I need a kick in the ass every once in awhile, but using the walking as a warm up/cool down/something to do on my lazy days I don’t want to work hard or have a lot of time… I think it’s effective and fun.

I did Sculpt-alaties (spelling is probably wrong) today too, which I thought was ok… but I guess I’m not a beginner at pilates anymore *YAY* because it wasn’t anything too challenging.  The 20 minute workout actually went very fast for me.  I did like some of the unique ways they use the resistance bands though… I love my tubes and I’m always looking for creative things to do with them (aside from tying up my boyfriend JK JK JK GROSS)

I hope everyone is staying motivated this week and thinking thin.  I am really sorry if I haven’t been putting a lot of effort into buddyslim lately… I’ve been really depressed for some reason, just don’t even feel like really talking to anyone.  I am feeling better today, though.  My boyfriend and I haven’t been getting along so great, and of course the job I dislike, just stuff in general is making not feel like myself.  I promise to be more engaged in this site and you guys… because the motivation and the inspiration I get from everyone has really helped me so far!

By the way… Wednesday I tried to leave about 20 different comments to people and silly buddy slim kept eating them.  I was like ready to throw the computer out the window. hahaha.  So from now on I’m copying my comments before I post them just in case I have to repost them in the near future.  I feel bad, because everyone has been so great and reached out to me so much, I don’t want people to think I’m ignoring them!  I’m just having technical difficulties hahaha.

Well, have a great weekend girlies.  HERE WE GO STEELERS!!!

So, I may not truly enjoy my job right now.  That’s for sure.  It’s a source of stress that leads to me to unhealthy habits in my life.  Stress, being around booze, being around smoke, being around a bunch of unhealthy miserable people all the time… I’m ready for a change.  BUT I think working there just landed me a life changing career opportunity!!!!!!!  I am so excited today I am like jumping out of my skin.

I am constantly scanning Craigslist for new jobs.  I don’t have any office experience and I am always looking for something entry level I can do on the side.  I am almost done with college, so I have great verbal and computer skills, but I just don’t have the EXPERIENCE that a lot of people look for, they see my resume, and they automatically disqualify me because I have always worked in the bar business.  What they don’t realize is that the last bar I worked at I did EVERYTHING there.  I did their payroll, paperwork, advertising… they were two dumb hillbillies that thought it would be fun to be able to sit around and drink at a place they owned.  But anyway I digress…

There was an ad yesterday from a real estate agency looking for new people who were either in the process of getting their license, or planned on doing so in the near future.  The thought has crossed my mind in the past, but I never persued in any further.  I took a chance and emailed the person, and did some research online about how I can get certified.  Never realized the classes were SO CHEAP.  Well, on a chance last night I brought it up to one of the patrons of the bar I work at… and his mother is PART OWNER of the agency!!!  I got a really nice email this morning from her telling me to stop in so we can talk about me getting my license and she offered to be my mentor and help me get started in the industry!  I AM SO EXCITED!  I know real estate is not a very good business to be in right now… but even if I can close 3 or 4 deals a year…. keep my full time job… I will be a real career woman! 

I need to harness this energy into a nice long workout.  And get cracking on my online studies.  I cannnnnot wait! 

Hope everyone is having a happy week and thinking thin!  Sorry for the ranting but I am like bursting with excitement! 

I don’t know why!  I just always am a fan of Mondays.  It’s probably partially because the boys go back to work so I have allll day to workout and do whatever needs done around the house.  It’s also probably because I have Tuesdays off for the most part

This weekend was pretty awful.  I messed up on Friday and drank way too much.  I ended up staying at my bar until it closed because my boyfriend and I got in a fight and I didn’t want to go home and be mad at him.  My roommate was working so when I got off at 8 I just stayed and partied and waited for him to be done so he could drive me home.  I got pretty sloppy, and I’m really not proud of myself when I get like that.  Fortunately I was aware enough to know that there were other people around me acting 10x worse than I was.  Still, I hate being foolish.  And what’s even worse….

I GOT THE FLU THE NEXT DAY!  Like full on fever, barfing, everything…. When I first woke up I thought I just had a massive hangover.  But then as the day progressed and I couldn’t get out of bed I was like… DAMMIT… sooooo… I had to call off work.  I’m sure it looks AWFUL because the speculation I’m sure is that I drank too much the night before.  But I would never call off just because I’m hungover!  I like money too much and I know when I drink I’m only punishing myself so I need to cope.  I’m pretty sure they know me well enough there to realize that, but you can’t be sure. People always talk.  I went back to work last night because I was done with the puking part… but now it’s like major pooping problems.  It sucks so bad!  I didn’t feel right today either when I woke up, but I forced myself to workout.  I think maybe if I sweat as much as possible I will make this go away faster.  I hope so at least.

On a lighter note, my boyfriend told me yesterday he can tell I’m losing weight.  I dunno if he felt guilty for making me so mad Friday night, or felt guilty for giving me the flu… hahaha… or if he just wanted to borrow 40 dollars (which he did), but I will take it as a compliment.  I can tell I lost weight in the weirdest places… like in my upper back… my bras used to always make kind of a lump but now it’s flatter.  And like around my ribcage is flattening too.  YESSSS.  I want 6 pack abs by this time next year.  Even when I was at my thinnest (118 about 7 years ago) I never was ripped.  Now I want to be both!

I can’t wait to reach my mini goal of 160.  I’m gonna treat myself to a tanning package and a rembrant 2 hour tooth whitening.  I’m hoping to get there by Valentine’s Day, which I think is pretty realistic if I don’t go on anymore whiskey benders followed by soft pretzals and nacho cheese at 3am… hahaha… Oh yeah, and I ate french fries 2 times last week.  Ohhhh noooo.  My boyfriend’s parents took us grocery shopping yesterday though, and we got a lot of healthy easy stuff for me, and a lot of easy stuff Aaron can just throw in the microwave or the oven when I’m at work so he doesn’t wait for me to get home and make me decide what to eat.  It’s so hard cooking for someone who doesn’t like to eat healthy and try to cook healthy stuff for myself! 

Well I hope everyone had a much better weekend than I did!  Keep up the good work, as always!

I overslept again today.  I haven’t been able to wake up at a reasonable time all week!  I am a sleepy girl and I don’t know why! 

Today I neeeeeeed to work out.  Like a lot.  I’m going out for a friend’s birthday tonight, and let me tell you, this crowd of people DRINKS.  We’re a bunch of bartenders… we know what tastes good and we know how to get the job done. Hahaha.  I’m thinking I’m just gonna stick to water and do shots when everyone else does (which is typically at least 3 per hour)… which is like… diet devistation right there!  The stars are all aligned, I have a designated driver and everything, and I don’t work til 6pm tomorrow… but I know I need to be good, because I’ve been naughty this week!  The upside is, when I go out with them, I usually drink vodka and water, so me drinking water might confuse the drunkards into thinking that I am actually drinking vodka… so I can avoid a little peer pressure…. hahaha… this is the first time I’ve gone out boozing since I started all this.  I might not even NEED to drink that much before I’m a little sloppy pile of blackout.  Which is really not pretty.

Ohhh well… on an upside!  I emailed a lot of gyms in my area and told them I was in the process of losing a lot of weight (haha, I’m very optimistic) and that I would like to be a group aerobic instructor or personal trainer at some point in my life, and am looking to get certified to do so.  I asked them what certifications they reccomended and what education they required their employees to have.  I also asked if they had any entry level positions open even as a receptionist of some sort just to be in a gym environment.  Now I know if I take that on as a full time job, I’m going to take a severe pay cut.  BUT I will be able to keep my bartending job if I play my cards right.  I got an email back from one that said that for group aerobic instruction all they require is “the right person” but for personal trainers they prefer if the person has an educational background in a health field on top of certification.  They also said they will have an opening for a receptionist in May.  So…. there’s my new motivation.  To be in shape enough in May to not feel like an idiot when I go to a job interview.  Over the summer I will work on my ACE to be a group aerobic instructor.  The guy even said he’d sit down with me and help me map out my goals in the fittness industry!  It sounds so silly right now at the weight and fittness level I am in, but I am sure by May if I keep going at this rate, I will be in a lot better shape and if I’m still interested, I have a great option!  I am so excited.

Well, time is calories, and since I have to be at work at 4, I’m running out of time to burn… hope everyone is having a wonderful day.  Thanks for all the great thinspiration!

I haven’t posted in what seems like ages!  I’m sorry!  Don’t worry I haven’t fallen off the wagon, I just have been working like a maniac, my boyfriend has the flu…. and I’m just too tired to get on the computer at the end of the day.

I can say I have been doing really well with my working out… the resistance tubes, dumbbells, and medicine ball have been well worth the money spent.  Though when I weighed in today I am only down to 169 (a loss of a pound since last week) my clothes fit soooo much better and my stomach looks flatter.  I know I’m building muscle from doing strength training, which weighs more than fat… but it also burns off fat!!  So even if my results seem slow right now, I feel thinner… and that makes me happy!

Hope everyone is doing well…. I will definitely be on more frequently starting tomorrow!

xo

Martha